the worst thing about writing is that you aren’t just a writer. you have to be a thousand things. a poet, a flirt, a weapons expert, a bleeding heart, a scholar, a legendary cook, a theorist, an engineer, a reckless teenage girl, a dying god. you have to be able to write monologues and speeches and heartfelt confessions, and you have to make them believable. writing is putting yourself into someone else’s shoes.
uuuurgh my art isn’t up to scratch these days… ah well, someone will like it
OKAY SO- my head canon for Cecil is that he and Earl Harlan were a couple, long before Carlos came along, but Cecil, thanks to his reeducation, forgot all about Earl. Even so, very occasionally, if Carlos makes just the right face, he’ll remember an intimate second with the man he used to care about so much.